Does anyone in the world really get this?

I can't get this out of my head. This boggles me through every little neuron and synapse of my brain. And surely it cannot be understood. The degree to which humans were created with this propensity to do good and yet also with this propensity to do evil is mind blowing, almost debilitating to process this coexistence. We recognize this selfishness, our embedded pursuit of pleasure, whether recognized as conscious or unconscious. Selfishness may rule us, but yet it is not able to completely prevail over our entire beings. We are still plagued by this altruistic urge creeping its way into us. Total regard for the self is impossible, because all of us have been instilled with yet this redemptive sort-of quality--or moreorless, it is what we were created full with, until we twisted it. Even the biggest a-hole on the planet has produced some sort of goodness that ripples an effect. This deposit of morality has been fastened within us--we did not formulate it's existence. It may be suppressed, but it cannot be withdrawn. We can chose to feed whichever propensity, but none lacks either ability. And here resides these dichotomous instincts--or whatever the crap they are--and these instincts vie for dominance, struggling for greater ascendance than the other--all occurring in the inward activity in one person all at the same time. And we don't even realize it. WE DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT. Absolutely ridiculous. What kind of thing, or being, or whatever would create such a mind-blowing masterpiece? I HAVE NO IDEA. Well kinda, but holy moly...